Today....I tried to avoid my feelings and stay busy and occupied because I didn't want to face a psychological challenge that will haunt me until I accept it....Today I lost a childhood friend, A part of me refuse to face the fact he's gone....I didn't see him everyday, and we weren't on the same angles in life, but I love him like a brother, it was so much I didn't say, a lot of words that wasn't spoken...never let a moment pass without expressing your heart, you may never get another chance....Their was a bond I felt like it faded as we grew apart, but the value of our friendship remain untouched, through the absence of our visual, we grew closer in the spiritual, he once saved my life...and I saved his...I only wish he knew how I really felt.....Believe me or not, but I saw life through his eyes and how he struggled and suffered without a mother and father, basically raising himself and his two siblings, I don't fault him for the way he came, I just wish he could have experience life from every point of view....REST IN ETERNAL LOVE....INFINITY.....